September 28, 2023


Begin of 2021
and I’m unusually lacking the “New 12 months, New Me!” social media bombardment.

This appears a
displaced begin to the brand new yr.

Contemplating we’ve
come from 2020 and we’re nonetheless going by means of the upheaval of Covid in our lives
it actually isn’t a shock.

It seems like we’ve
inadvertently dragged 2020 into 2021.

I am surprisingly
fairly blissful the brand new yr has began.

I’m not one for
“new yr, new me” stuff. I’ve at all times been one who simply carries on with the move.
It’s, in any case, simply one other day, of one other month into one other yr.

However I want this
yr to be totally different.

I’m not speaking
about Covid.

Covid life is
going to be round for some time. Our lives are going to be interchanging and interconnected
to covid information till at the very least the summer time.

My perspective nonetheless
wants altering.

I’m a fighter.
I’ll tackle and struggle any impediment that comes my approach. It retains me going.

Final yr began
so effectively.

We personally
had come off the again of a hellish 2019. We fought in opposition to wrongful accusations,
in opposition to injustice and inappropriate behaviour. We fought the system and we received.
It took us to hell and again however we did it.

We then began
the yr combating for the kids and entry preparations; a consequence of the
earlier years difficulties. As soon as once more, we received.

We then began
a struggle in opposition to inaccessibility domestically. We took to vary our Excessive Road for the
higher. We began that struggle and we achieved a lot till Covid stopped us.

We then had
4 kids with advanced and interchanging particular academic wants at residence.

As above I used to be
fantastic. I relished within the struggle.

House Schooling
wasn’t actually a struggle. I used to be in my factor and I simply did my “trainer factor” and
I genuinely imagine that all of us thrived in it.

Then all of us adjusted
to covid life put up lockdown. There wasn’t actually a struggle wanted. So I ended.

I’ve watched
individuals round me obtain superb issues throughout and past lockdown. Some began
new companies, others took on residence training after weeks of tears and frustration
and a few have taken up new hobbies or made outdated hobbies thrive.

I didn’t. I simply

Previous to lockdown
I signed again as much as Genes Reunited to hold on my outdated household tree and family tree
analysis. I’m a part of a Kitney Fb group and after 4 years of inactivity it
grew to become lively once more. So I signed up with the intent to start out once more.

Nope. I did it
once I was requested a query within the group however didn’t go into it any additional.

I had
actively requested for artwork gear final Christmas so I might keep on and give attention to
my art work. Lockdown ought to have supplied me with the time, alternative and motion
to create extra.

No. I solely created
2 items of artwork final yr; one was completed earlier than lockdown and the opposite a couple of weeks
into lockdown.

I had plans to
learn extra books, to write down extra weblog posts right here, to start out a brand new weblog and get again
to writing about religion and faith and had plans to be extra lively and artistic
within the backyard.

I didn’t do any
of it. I ended. I wasn’t fighting lockdown, youngsters being residence or the worry
of being contaminated. I simply stopped.

That isn’t me.

After all, there
are many constructive issues that I did do.

I began working
for our church on their social media accounts in addition to creating a number of interactive
actions for our church group to do throughout lockdown. I used to be holding a Zoom
Quiz evening as soon as a month which was actually enjoyable for household and associates. I managed to
take heed to round 40 audio books (is that this sacrilege in opposition to precise books?) Oh and
I received fats. Which isn’t essentially a nasty factor because the meals was at all times nice.

The church associated
actions have been good as a result of they helped a era who’re laptop illiterate
to truly have “church” in a time after they would have in any other case missed out.

Nevertheless, exterior
of that I don’t suppose I’ve completed greater than survive day after day. I do know for a lot of that
will be an achievement in itself and I don’t need to take away from these individuals however
for me, it isn’t rather a lot.

I often really feel
like I can share a weblog put up of my artwork for the yr, what we’ve completed exercise sensible,
how the kids have progressed on XYZ or what I’ve personally achieved however I can’t
this yr.

It actually bothers
me. I COULD have completed a lot extra.

Though this
isn’t a “New 12 months, New Me” put up that is undoubtedly a put up that makes me extra
accountable to what I do going forwards.

Does anybody else
really feel the identical? Really feel such as you need to obtain extra this coming yr than final?